tired yet alert

I feel so exhausted yet I feel wide awake and alert.  Its nearly 2 a.m. as I write this and my mind is rushing with ideas and thoughts of all kinds.  *sigh*  Will I ever feel rested again?  I dont remember what it feels like. I havent slept well since forever…

I love my kids so much.  I want another child.  My womb aches with emptiness.  My heart feels like it has so much more love to give.  Maybe someday it will be my plan AND Gods plan at the same time.

For tonight I must go find sleep wherever it may be.  I hope it rests one me soon.

Super Mom